Random thoughts ….

• I am under a cloud of death. After my dad, and my sister-in-law’s mother – mentioned in my last post – there was my friend’s dad and my niece’s mother-in-law. Holy crap, I hope I hear some good news from someone soon!
• After three years, three months and 16 days, my period has finally returned. Woo-hoo! I know you may think it is crazy to celebrate that fact, but this may be an indication that my fertility has returned and I am very excited about that. You never know, maybe The Girl won’t be an only child forever. Hopefully it will happen before my own senility sets in.
• When I was in NoDak, about a million people brought over wonderful things to eat (known jokingly as the “bereavement buffet” in our house). Included in the million things were about half a million cookies – all homemade. Have I mention that I love cookies? So, one day I had one cookie around 10 a.m., another one about 3:00 p.m. and yet another one at about 10:00 p.m. to which my mother commented “you’ve been a little hard on the cookies today.” And yes, she was serious. All 110 lbs of her.
• I must say that I heart Patia. If you don’t read her, you should. She’s a wonderful writer and photographer. Not only do I admire her talent, but I treasure her friendship. She has been so, so, SO supportive of me forever, and especially these last few months. Thanks, Patia. I hardly ever get a chance to reply, but I appreciate every single comment and e-mail. You totally rock!

And how are you? Do you have any good news to share? I could really use some.

What the hell?

As if my own father’s death wasn’t enough …

When I was in NoDak with my family, my sister-in-law was here getting ready to go with her family on their annual extended-family outing. Before they went, my SIL’s mother wanted to stop at urgent care because she thought she had bronchitis.

A few tests later they told her she had stage four lung cancer and was given one year to live. Then last Thursday, she died. It was about 2 weeks between diagnosis and death.

She was young, only 68, and it was such a tragic loss. The funeral was yesterday. Two highly emotional funerals in as many weeks – I am glad this month is over.

And did I mention my dad’s last living brother is at Mayo?

Then today I read that Rachel is no longer going to be blogging and I feel just crushed. I know that I am projecting other losses and other feelings onto her, I really do. I met her only once; it is not like I really “know” her at all. But I have read her for years, and we had the same due date with our kids and I always felt that if we lived close to each other we would have been friends.

Anyway, I feel sad.

If Patia, TTG, kgirl, Phil, Birdie, Claire, Monty, Cat, Shawna, Anita or Meg or any of the rest of you stop blogging, I might just have to hibernate for a while.